July 14, 2008
July 14
I’m coming back to the world, slowly. This has been the hardest month of my life, but with so much support from real life friends and family to online friends from the writing community that I’m still relatively sane. Thank you again, all of you who’ve reached out. Odd things have happened, things that I never would have guessed that got me through. Mostly, I was searching for ways to disappear, to escape.
I ended up watching DVDs of Criminal Minds over and over again. (I told you - odd). For some reason, I could let go of everything while watching. I read, lots, but mostly fan fiction. Yeah, go figure. I had to go to the dentist last Wednesday, and I inexplicably fell apart there (embarrassing as hell) and went into a nose dive that lasted until yesterday. My friend Debbi finally yanked me from the house and we went to the movies. Saw WANTED, which was a huge disappointment to me. But getting out was good. As was the popcorn.
So today I’m going to write again. As you can imagine I’m very disassociated from the book, and I have to reacquaint myself with the characters and the world I’m writing about. Go me. And weirdly, my heroine’s name is Vivianne, a name that was questioned by friends and editor as being a bit old-fashioned and weird. Now that the Jolie-Pitt’s have named their new daughter Vivianne, I’m thinking it won’t be so weird any more. (Another weird moment - headline: Jolie gives birth to twins. Um, no. Not this Jolie at least. I prefer: Jolie voted best breasts in Hollywood. Ha!
I know there’s still more adjusting and grieving ahead, but I don’t feel as though I’m drowning today. It’s a good thing. One step forward. :)
Shout Out! Jo Leigh @ 9:56 am | home life
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Whatever it takes to keep getting out of bed is what you need to do. Hang in there, my friend. It WILL eventually get better. (((Hugs)))
July 14th, 2008 at 1:51 pmJo-
I was very saddened to hear of your loss. No words are enough. Sending good thoughts your way. Glad to hear you are getting back to the business of life. Good luck with the writing. Sending lots of love and support your way.
July 14th, 2008 at 2:31 pmAhh - it’s lovely to see you posting Jo. Have been thinking of you. Good luck with the writing. Go you.
(((Hugs)))
July 15th, 2008 at 1:07 amOh and yes, as I was pimping your books to a friend the other day I *did* happen to mention, casually, that it was rumoured you had the best breasts in hollywood! ha!
July 15th, 2008 at 1:19 amI meant to tell you, I bought Have Mercy for Holly so she could find all the doggies! It was a great treat for her!
July 15th, 2008 at 7:38 amThanks, Jordan. That’s how I’m approaching everything these days. Left foot, right foot…
Thank you, Barbara. I appreciate the kind thoughts.
Willa, you’re such a sweetie. Thank you. And LOL on my breasts! (Well, someone’s breasts)
That’s so cool, Alison - I’m glad Holly had fun. :)
July 15th, 2008 at 10:26 am*Sends a BIG HUG from Texas*
July 15th, 2008 at 10:56 amOh it is great to “see” you again!!!
Hooray for Debbi! I am REALLY glad she is there for you!
I heard Wanted was pretty bloody…
Just keep remember all the great things! it will help in those bad days!
I think of you every single day!! And pray that you are getting through this! And then I cry for you…then I smile cuz he seemed like such a wonderful man :) you have been blessed to have in even for only a tiny while…
July 15th, 2008 at 1:28 pmyou are in my thoughts glad u are back.
July 16th, 2008 at 7:58 pmJolie, So glad you are getting out, even a little bit. Please know you are in my thoughts.
Patricia
July 18th, 2008 at 8:28 amMy movie buff friend…went to see The Dark Knight! WOW!! It was pretty amazing…pretty gorey too…but it was good. Ledger was incredible! such a loss!
July 18th, 2008 at 9:51 pmI have not been around a while due to my computer crashing, but you are in my prayers. I am glad you got out and saw a movie, even if it was terrible :(
July 27th, 2008 at 6:04 pmI look forward to your next Blaze. It has been one hot summer and I got my TBR pile down. But Blazes are always my favorite quick reads. Take care (((((((HUGS))))))